Jesus for my family.
Have you ever had one of those moments when you just lose it?
Like full on lost your marbles lose it?
But in a good way?
I was walking out the door to the grocery store with Cooper when Brady’s nurse coordinator from CHOP asked me to call her.
We had a lengthy chat to cover all my questions.
I hung up the phone and felt like I was floating.
Like I was drowning in a river but then suddenly a raft appeared to relieve my tired and aching body.
Then, this song, a very favorite of mine in this season, came on the radio.
I couldn’t stop the tears from streaming down my face.
I turned the radio up so loud I’m certain the cars around me could feel the presence of Jesus.
I shouted through my tears…
“Shout Jesus from the mountains
Jesus in the streets
Jesus in the darkness over every enemy
Jesus for my family
I speak the holy name
'Cause Your name is power
Your name is healing
Your name is life
Break every stronghold
Shine through the shadows
Burn like a fire”
Shout Jesus from the mountains.
Jesus in the streets.
Jesus in the darkness over every enemy.
Jesus for my family.
I speak the holy name Jesus.
Friends. Brady’s 1 in 10,000 test came back clear.
And guess what else?
This is the best.
They have it planned for Brady to start the trial we have been praying for.
'Cause Your name is power. Your name is healing. Your name is life.
Break every stronghold. Shine through the shadows. Burn like a fire.
Shine through the shadows.
Lord, shine. Let your love, grace, and mercy shine so brightly that no one can doubt where this power is coming from.
What does this mean? Well, I’m glad you asked because we asked too. It means Brady likely won’t need anymore chemotherapy treatment before his CART therapy. (Yay!). It does mean we still have to move forward with CART. Unfortunately, his leukemia is a ticking time bomb within the depths of his marrow and the targeted therapy isn’t a long term cure.
So we move forward with CART but know that this amazing news is setting our brave boy up in an incredible way. A way we weren’t expecting.
A month ago I surrendered so many of my wants and desires for our son over to God. My friends could see it in my face and hear it in my voice. And I’m sure many of you felt it through my words.
A month ago friends asked me how I was and my only response was, “I’m not ready to bury my son.”
But the Lord has shown me something new in this surrender.
He has shown me the way to live.
He has shown me to hug those I love a little longer. To breathe in the air a bit deeper. To let go of the things I can’t control and embrace the terrain ahead. To take each day as it comes. To stop worrying about the details. To smile more. To laugh as much as possible.
He is showing me how to shine through the shadows.
Shout Jesus from the mountaintops.
Because this cancer. It’s going down.
Jesus for my family,