Emotional battles...

Today, Brady had to go back in for more labs. Unfortunately, they didn’t show what we were hoping. His platelets have totally tanked and are only 4 (4,000) and his hemoglobin dropped to 7. So after 3 hours of waiting, he got hooked up to the first of four planned transfusions. Two platelets and two blood. I was at the pool with Aubrey trying to enjoy some time just the two of us when Chris gave me the update. In that moment I felt like I could have filled that pool with the tears I wanted to cry. This battle is hard. Not just physically, but emotionally. This isn’t completely unexpected or in any way devastating news (although anytime your platelets are that low it is extremely concerning), so I sat there trying to search my heart on why I wanted to just break down. It’s the delay in the biopsy. The biopsy that was scheduled for two weeks from Tuesday will continue to be pushed back as long as treatment is. That biopsy is what tells us if the treatment is working and if we are making any progress in killing this cancer. Brady isn’t in remission so that biopsy holds the key to the future. It holds the answers for where we actually stand in this battle. I am a planner and a doer. I am a list maker. This “unknown” is exhausting. The emotional conversations every day with the kids is pulling at my heart and leaving me so drained. Do I feel like everyone is handling things as well as to be expected? Yes, absolutely. But it feels like it takes one million words to talk through everything with each of them every day to help them understand each other’s perspectives. So today, I’m asking for some specific prayers… - Pray that Brady’s levels will rise so there won’t be any more delays that push back his biopsy date - Pray for each of our kids to find understanding in these extremely hard to navigate times - Pray for a physical, mental and emotional renewal for Chris and I - Pray for people to continue to donate blood and platelets. Today, they had to wait on a bag to be delivered from the Red Cross because they were out of matches for Brady. - Please also pray for our friends Logan and Evan that their levels will also rise so that no delays happen for them either “Where two or more are gathered, there I am” #waytobattlebrady #bravelikebrady #leukemiawarrior #phillylikemutation #TheBattleIsOn