Have you ever heard the quote from Saint Augustine, “Pray as though everything depended on God. Work as though everything depended on you.”?
The latter is where I have found myself these days.
Constantly reading and researching through my phone, computer and books. Looking for ways to find some alternative protocol that will somehow be the lifeline for our son.
That perfect combination where traditional treatment meets holistic health meets diet changes meets new uncharted avenues of healing.
And it shows.
My eyes are exhausted. The dark circles are pretty terrible and I can barely keep my eyes open without the constant need to rub them. My brain feels all consumed, but yet somehow unable to find my way through all the information I’m throwing at it.
Medical papers and personal stories, all that have nothing to do with the extreme rarity of Brady’s case, but I’m somehow hoping the stars will align to show me something new that has been tried that may work for Brady.
You know, in the other 32 patients in the world that have made it as far as him.
Let me tell you, tumor cancers are far different than blood cancers.
I was talking to a friend about the incredible divine miracle from this week, more about that in a minute, when God helped my own words illuminate the first part of that quote to me.
“Pray as it depends on God.”
Here I am exhausting myself in different protocols and potential diet regimens when He is the answer.
He always has been.
He always will be.
Last week we told you all that we had made the decision to not accept any direct blood or platelet donations for Brady.
We felt that God had given us a voice to reach the people of this country to speak for those who were unable. For us to help our fellow brave warriors who don’t have a community ready to jump into action to help.
We just knew that if we helped educate everyone on the desperate need to fill the blood banks, then our son would be helped as well as the rest of the warriors battling in our country.
We just knew that God would provide for Brady.
And man did he ever, friends.
Monday we shared that the “impossible” happened.
After the platelet-depleting immunotherapy last Friday, Brady’s platelet count actually rose over the weekend.
But that wasn’t it.
God wasn’t done showing us the impossible.
Wednesday, his counts doubled to 56,000.
Then yesterday, another flex of His muscle. Brady’s platelets, 78,000.
The same immunotherapy that took him to 5,000 last week, well, God took him to 78,000 this week.
Today, Brady’s lumbar puncture was confirmed to clear of leukemia for the second week in a row. Praise God. Brady sailed through this entire week and didn’t need a single blood or platelet transfusion.
Not one single bag.
And when did it all happen? As soon as we stepped out in faith and obedience and publicly declined direct donations for Brady. As soon as I took those signed direct donation papers and threw them in the trash.
Instead, we vowed to plead for everyone to help fill all the blood banks across our country so that every American has access to the blood products they need to continue fighting whatever battle they have been faced with.
Give up control over what you think is “guaranteed” and instead, take a big, deep breath and step out in faith.
Then you pray like it depends on God.
Because it does.
All of it.
Every. Single. Bit.
Next Friday Brady will have a bone marrow biopsy to see the state of the leukemia in his blood. And I honestly don’t know what to pray for other than a miracle. For a path to be illuminated for us so clearly we can’t deny it. For peace to blanket us in every decision. And for Brady. For him to live more changes of the seasons. And for him to be a miracle here on earth.
So here is to praying like we have never prayed before…
Living a miracle,
“Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.”